Archive for March, 2010
I love to drive. I always forget about this fact until I’m in my car, shades on, music blaring, going 50 down the highway. Every time my car has broken down, I’ve gotten a little depressed. It’s not always about the cost of repair (unless I need ANOTHER new engine) it’s more about the fact of giving up control of my life. What if I want to go see a movie/shop/run away? Oh, I can’t because my car is in the shop and I’m at the mercy of my mechanic. It’s scary! Thinking about this reminds me that only I can control my life. I can either get in the car and drive or I can continue to let others drive me around. My drive/ride will always be changing. I may not always like the scenery outside of my window so I can stay or I can get the heck out of there.
I’m also in charge of who rides with me on my drive. I honestly got a 4 door car with my friends in mind. I wanted to be able to pick them up if they needed me to and I want to have room for as many people as safely possible. When my friends ride, we either agree or compromise on the destination. Sometimes it’s perfectly ok to sit back and let others drive. We all need to remember that sometimes but you have to trust that the person driving is going to take you where you both wanted to go.
So I’m excited right now to find some new roads that I haven’t gone down yet and hopefully one of these roads will lead me to where I need to be. For now, I’m just enjoying the drive.
This is a post inspired by Samantha over at Life is Like a Box of Chocolates http://ow.ly/1nl4i
Here are 10 random things you may or may not know about me
My boyfriend and I set up a dinner menu every week and only shop on Sundays. We were tired of playing the “What do you want for dinner?” game every night in the middle of the supermarket. It actually works and lets you explore new recipes because you already have everything you need before the day you actually need it.
I like to paint my toes crazy colors. I usually don’t wear anything but clear nail polish on my hands but on my toes I go crazy with pinks, blues, yellows and the like.
I wear a size 11 shoe. That means I have super big feet. It’s usually really hard for me to find cute cheap shoes. I’m not at a place in my life where I spend a ton on shoes so it sucks! Usually if a store does carry my size, they are sold out because everyone is having the same problem I am!
I’ve worn makeup once in my life…my junior prom. I have no idea what I’m supposed to do with it. When I move, I think that’s going to change since I will be living in a house with 2 other women.
I’m not scared of roller coasters but I refuse to ride them. I’m not a small woman and I know coasters were not built to safely hold me and I’d rather not die/get stuck. So I will stay off of them until I’m their “safe” weight.
I ran the Olympic Torch for the winter Olympic when I was a Junior in High School. I was working with Students Against Violence Everywhere & the Chevy Rock Program. I was chosen to run in Washington D.C. My school bought the torch and I got a page in the Year Book. Unfortunately, my parents were told to stand on the wrong street and never got to see me run it. It was honestly my greatest accomplishment.
I’m an Army Brat. My MOM was an E8 (1st Sergeant y’all) in the Army and I have lived in Ft. Lewis (Tacoma)Washington; Kaiserslautern (K-Town), Germany; Ft. Hood, Texas; Darmstadt, Germany; and Ft. Huachuca (Sierra Vista), AZ until my mom retired. Going from Army bases to the “real world” was a huge culture shock for me.
I’m a night person but I’m currently working on becoming a morning person. It’s hard but it’s a work in progress. It’s REALLY hard to wake up at 6 am when there is snow all over the ground and you have to clean off your car! Thankfully Spring is almost here!
I quit my 365 photo project because I was taking pictures of stupid things just to make my midnight deadline. I haven’t put down my camera; I just want to be able to think about my shot before I take it. I hope that will be one small step in making me a better photographer.
I’m super scared of swimming in the ocean. I can’t go too far out into the water because I’m scared I will get sucked into the undertow. I almost drowned in the deep end of the pool when I was younger and I’m guessing I never fully gained back my confidence in my swimming abilities.
Now you know some strange things about me, give me 5-10 things I don’t know about you! You can leave it here in the comments or post a link to it on your own blog so I can check it out. Enjoy!
It’s time to kick back and watch some great upsets, sweet Cinderella stories, and cheer on your favorite team. As usual, my college team (ECU Pirates) is not going to make it to the “Big Dance” but I still enjoy watching. The only problem for me is since I no longer live in a true “college town” the atmosphere isn’t the same. When we go to a bar, the air isn’t thick with excitement and we get strange looks when we ask for hockey to be turned off so we can watch a game. It’s not like I live in Canada (just kidding eh) and hockey is on the brain, it’s just that people in my area are no longer into college sports period thanks to all the problems with the Binghamton University Men’s Basketball program. http://www.pressconnects.com/article/99999999/NEWS01/91014035?template=theme&theme=bucoach
I’m sure if I drove to Syracuse, it would be a different story because they have a #1 Seed in the tournament and they are going to showing basketball nonstop. They are happy.
So for now, until next year when I’m in Raleigh for March Madness, I will plant my butt on the couch in front of the 52’’ flat screen and enjoy being who I am in the nonjudgmental zone of my house.
Oh and see if you can kick my butt or will get your butt kicked: Join my Yahoo! Sports Tournament Pick’em group, “TwitterBlender” http://y.ahoo.it/oXTdNb8B
I had to order checks this week. I realized I only had 4 checks left and I wasn’t going to make it through until my personal move out date of mid-April.
Ordering checks made me think about how quickly money leaves my hands and how that can’t be the case for much longer. I enjoy buying little things for people to brighten up their day. I bought cupcakes for my coworkers on Friday because we all had a pretty crappy month last month. I buy fun things for my boyfriend like his favorite gum or NC State stuff to make him smile. (I’m guessing this isn’t working btw since we are ending our relationship.)
Well I’m over it. I realize that I’m buying things to make ME feel better, not them. I wanted cupcakes I didn’t care about everyone else. Yes, they enjoyed them but so what? I need to be saving for my move not trying to make everyone in my office happy for 10 minutes.
Because I’m so far away from my parents (Mom’s in VA, Dad’s in NC) and I have a huge fear of driving large vehicles, I’m going to get some sort of moving cube to move all my stuff. It seems pointless to me to try to drive a U-Haul with my car attached when I don’t even like driving an SUV. I’m hoping I can fit all of my things in my car and in this cube thing. I already know it’s going to cost me a ton but it’s practical and I need practical to reach my goal of leaving NY.
When you have a goal, sometimes you have to do things you don’t want to. This sometimes includes not spending any money on making yourself feel better just because you are down and taking the baby steps towards actually making your goal come true. Achieving your dreams will be the ultimate payoff! So stop sitting there….go mail me some cookies or start making your own goals come true.
I’m having an affair…I know I know, I’m still technically in a relationship but this affair started a long time ago and it’s never ending.
This affair was brought to mind by this comment from my wonderful friend Kristin
“pack only what you can carry in your car. become a stranger. struggle to make it”
I’m having an affair with my stuff.
I’m scared of hell to sell all of my things that I have collected since I gained my independence by having my own place to live during college. I’m an Army Brat so I’ve never really had a true place to call home. Yes I lived in NC since I was in 8th grade but with my parents yelling at each other all the time from 8th grade until their divorce, it never really felt like home. So I started my love affair with my things and I’m sure it’s not healthy.
I’m not talking about having the latest and greatest gear. I’m talking about the dresser that I got from my friend Nick for a steal because he packed up & went to New Mexico. I’m talking about my bed that I got almost brand new from my dad because he liked his old one better. I’m also talking about my tiny black nightstand that was passed from PartyEastCarolina member through the years. I was going to actually part with it before I left college but I didn’t get the chance. I’m talking about the desk that my buddy Jon helped me pick up from some strange guy’s apartment and load into his car in the middle of the night.
I’m not a hoarder. I promise lol but it’s hard for me to see myself with nothing. Starting from scratch. Sleeping on a cheap futon because that’s all I would be able to afford if I just took off with just my clothes, my car & no job.
But then I remember that they are just THINGS. Things can be replaced and all the people that gave me these things are still a part of my life and they all helped shape me so that I can be a new person. And I thank them for this…..
But I still want to take my bed
I joined another network on Brazen Careerist called “Monthly Goal Meet-Up”
To participate in the meet-up:
1. Post a list of your career/life related goals for the current month, along with your checked off goals from the previous month if you’d like, on your own blog
2. Come back to this group and leave a link to your post in the comments (*If you don’t have your own blog, feel free to share your list of goals in the comments section of the post to join in!)
3. Then, check out everyone else’s lists as they leave comments – click their links, visit their blogs, say hello, meet, greet and support each other because that’s what it’s all about!
So that’s what I’m doing! I’m late getting started but I guess you could say my February goal was to figure my shit out for March
I realize I need to be clear about what I need to accomplish in order to be on the move by April.
1. Figure out where I want to live. I finally got a call back about a sales position with a company that I’m interested in (I’ll know more tomorrow) and they have offices all over the USA so I have to be open to relocating anywhere. That’s pretty exciting to me because it opens up a ton of possibilities but there is always the chance that this falls through so I need to be prepared. After reading all the comments on my last post, I’m thinking Raleigh but I do need to explore a few more things before I decide totally.
2. BLOG MORE! I need to blog at least twice a week. I need to block out a chunk of time, sit down and write. I have a ton of ideas and blogging makes me focus.
3. Review the books I’m reading. Except for the trashy ones lol. I read romance novels to give me a little pick me up but I’m also currently reading “What Color is Your Parachute? 2010” and will be picking up anything anyone suggests in the comments.
4. Take better/more pictures. I spent big bucks on an awesome camera and I’m not taking photos with it. I’m doing a photo a day but most of the photos I’m taking suck. I know part of this is because I really want to get outside and I can’t because it’s cold as Fuck and I’m a Southern Girl at heart…I DON’T do cold very well. I’m also not feeling very inspired lately with this whole strange relationship I’m going through.
5. Be Nicer….to Everyone I realized I was a bitch to someone online and I didn’t mean to be. I was being honest and I realize that I could use some nicer words to still make the same point but I didn’t stop & think before I hit post. We all need a bit of kindness. We need to give love to those around us to get in back into our hearts also and God knows I need some love lol.
What is at least 1 goal you are setting for yourself for March?