SO… I turned down my first official job offer and I’m having a hard time getting over the guilt. In the last few weeks, I’ve been interviewing with a small, young upbeat company with a young staff and I didn’t know if I would like the job until the 2nd interview. I approached the opportunity with an open mind because the 1st interview wasn’t bad but it didn’t totally thrill me. But in my mind I said who cares about being thrilled? In this economy be happy that you got invited for a 2nd interview! Along comes the 2nd interview: a full day riding along with a current employee, shadowing while they do sales. I’ve never done outside sales before so it was an eye opener but I felt that I could do it if I was given the chance. I could walk into businesses in my territory and sell them products I believed in as long as I was wearing comfortable shoes. (Tip for the ladies: working in an office in heels is VERY different than walking into 80 businesses in a day in heels. My feet were killing me!)
So yeah I had the confidence and the drive needed to do the position. I was telling myself on the way back to the office how great the job was and how I had the potential to earn some pretty sweet commission pay. Then the other shoe dropped: the job is commission only…and they don’t pay mileage. Then an offer was made to join the team. I asked if I could think about it overnight and get back to them the next day.
I walked out of the office strongly conflicted. YAY! I got a job offer but…wait…can I make enough money to actually live? Yes, there is potential to be successful. Yes, the law of averages says the more people you see, the more of a chance you’ll hear a yes at the end of the day but what about those days or weeks when you get no sales? How would I eat? I can’t control how my product my customer orders. I could make $40 or $400. Am I willing to chance it?
Turns out I’m a bit risk adverse and I knew I was going to say no to the offer. Then the guilt set it…here I am turning down a job when the NC unemployment rate is 10.9%. How many people would kill to be in my shoes right now so they can feed their families? Well I talked to my dad and he made me realize I have to look out for myself because that’s all I can control. I am going to pass along the opportunity to people that might be interested and might be a better fit than I am.
So it’s back to job hunting…and not feeling guilty because I have to keep making myself happy. You have to do, what you have to do.