Archive for the ‘fears’ tag
if you’ve been following me on Twitter or Facebook, you know that my dad is in the hospital. Here’s all the details since I’ve been mostly generalizing things. On December 16, my dad had a brain tumor removed from over his cerebellum. I was in the hospital at the time with him and the surgery completely removed the tumor. He went back to Elizabeth City, NC, where he lives, a few days later after the doctors said it was ok. He was home (not by himself, but no I wasn’t there) and had a seizure on Christmas night. He went to the ER, they treated him and sent him home. He then had another seizure early early morning on Monday and then sent him back to the hospital were he had his surgery done. That’s when I get a call telling me where he is and a little bit about what is going on. Since then, his mental state has declined and he went from talking, to just saying his name but being able to wiggle his toes on command to not doing anything but sleeping. As of today, he opened his eyes when asked to twice and he gave the nurse a thumbs up this morning. Progress. The only bad thing is that this actions haven’t really repeated themselves throughout the day.
My dad had thyroid cancer around 2005 which even after taking out his thyroid, the cancer has shown up in other spots in his body. They were all treated and the latest was this spot in his brain. He’s diabetic, has high blood pressure and is hard headed. His wishes include “No Blood” and “Do Not Resuscitate” which I don’t agree with but it’s his religion, not mine. Anyway, a lot of treatments were going on without me knowing it since I was off at school and elsewhere so I had no idea the extent of the cancer.
So that brings me back to today. My dad is sitting in this crazy limbo state. The doctors haven’t come to a real conclusion as to why any of this stuff is going on. They are treating him like he has an infection just in case there is one that they aren’t seeing. His kidneys weren’t working all that well but they have been getting better. The doctors “think” that maybe once his kidneys are all better, he’ll just come right out of this state. As of right now, we play a waiting game.
As for me, I’m coming back to Raleigh shortly. (I have a butt doctor appointment Friday yay) I’ve been in the hospital with him but I’m overwhelmed with all of this. I’m the one who has to make all the decisions for him. Now that I know what’s really going on with him health-wise, I’m even more confused. I had a doctor straight up ask me how long I wanted him treated for and how aggressively. That was the worst question of my life because I had no clue what his wishes are. I just want my daddy to live and be able to walk me down the aisle one day.
So my point of this is yes to update you guys on what the hell is going on with me but to also say, talk to your parents and loved ones about their wishes. Make sure you aren’t kept in the dark. You need to do it now before they are in a state where they can’t make decisions for themselves.
Oh and please stop asking me if I’m ok…I’m not smashing lamps over my head but when I breakdown, you guys will know. Promise.
I’ve been in bed since Wednesday. I’m sure at some point in my life, it will be great to spend almost 5 full days in bed…maybe with someone but this was not the case this week. This week, my fear for my job, hurt my health in a major way.
I haven’t been selling as many cars as I’ve wanted/needed to in the past few weeks. November was a hard month for the dealership and for me so I know I have to REALLY be on the top of my game in order to keep my job. I like getting paid and I work hard to try to make sure that I keep getting paid. Well I started feeling sick at the start of December but ignored it. Read the rest of this entry »
SO… It’s almost May and haven’t blogged much because I’ve been so freaking busy. Here’s a recap of my life in JUST the last two weeks: I put in my notice at work. My (not) boyfriend got laid off at his job (Last Tuesday). I’m having a yard sale to sell all my stuff tomorrow. (on a business’s property since I’ve been kicked off my own lawn) The (not) boyfriend has already gotten a job (got an offer today). Same company, different position, and his dream location. (lucky him!!)
The voice in my head is screaming: “WHAT ABOUT ME??? Read the rest of this entry »
This morning, lots of women dressed up SUPER nicely for Easter service. Was pantyhose part of your wardrobe? From church to the job interview, the pantyhose question is thrown back and forth endlessly. Looking on the web, it seems that pantyhose is a great topic of debate for women (and sometimes the men chime in) but it looks like there is only one true answer* that all should follow. Here are a few articles from each side:
I decided to take my pantyhose fears to the wonderful people at on last Monday’s #jobhuntchat (super awesome/smart/funny/insightful people). Here’s some of the convo:
sjhalestorm : @HappyWalks, I don’t generally wear pantyhose to interviews. Usually. #JobHuntChat
MsCareerGirl @HappyWalks:Q4- My answer? Hose are an interview MUST regardless of the weather. #jobhuntchat
JennSchooley @HappyWalks If I’m wearing pants, I buy a bunch of nude knee highs. Still professional and comfortable!
Workchic @HappyWalks Do not wear them if you feel uncomfortable wearing them. That will show through in your interview! #jobhuntchat
MegSaid Depends on job and city and time of year. RT @HappyWalks: so no answer on the pantyhose lol? I hate it so I don’t wear it
LaurenGav @HappyWalks Pantyhose is geo dependent; yes up north and even in Cali not so much in the south. #jobchat
JasmineBrooks1 @HappyWalks Purchase sheer pantyhose #jobhuntchat
talentline411 @Infoployment @MsCareerGirl @HappyWalks Worked with a senior recruiter who vehemently insisted women should wear hose 2 intervu #jobhuntchat
bitty_boop Me either lol RT @HappyWalks: @MsCareerGirl what if the hose doesn’t match your skin? Nude is actually not nude on me lol #jobhuntchat
MsCareerGirl @HappyWalks I don’t think they have to match your skin. I almost always wear black tights and I am pale as Casper the ghost.#JobHuntChat Q4
*So my answer that I’ve gotten out of all this is:
If you are going to feel out of place by not wearing them, do it. If you are like me and can’t stand them, don’t wear them. If someone turns me down for a job because I wasn’t wearing pantyhose, I’m sure I wouldn’t want to work for them long term anyway. As women, we are judged for SO many things on the job hunt but pantyhose shouldn’t be one of them! Let the real you shine through instead of being worried about if you picked the right color pantyhose that morning!
What do you say about pantyhose? Yay or Nay?
FYI: Panty & Hose are two very fun words to say outloud
This is a post inspired by Samantha over at Life is Like a Box of Chocolates http://ow.ly/1nl4i
Here are 10 random things you may or may not know about me
My boyfriend and I set up a dinner menu every week and only shop on Sundays. We were tired of playing the “What do you want for dinner?” game every night in the middle of the supermarket. It actually works and lets you explore new recipes because you already have everything you need before the day you actually need it.
I like to paint my toes crazy colors. I usually don’t wear anything but clear nail polish on my hands but on my toes I go crazy with pinks, blues, yellows and the like.
I wear a size 11 shoe. That means I have super big feet. It’s usually really hard for me to find cute cheap shoes. I’m not at a place in my life where I spend a ton on shoes so it sucks! Usually if a store does carry my size, they are sold out because everyone is having the same problem I am!
I’ve worn makeup once in my life…my junior prom. I have no idea what I’m supposed to do with it. When I move, I think that’s going to change since I will be living in a house with 2 other women.
I’m not scared of roller coasters but I refuse to ride them. I’m not a small woman and I know coasters were not built to safely hold me and I’d rather not die/get stuck. So I will stay off of them until I’m their “safe” weight.
I ran the Olympic Torch for the winter Olympic when I was a Junior in High School. I was working with Students Against Violence Everywhere & the Chevy Rock Program. I was chosen to run in Washington D.C. My school bought the torch and I got a page in the Year Book. Unfortunately, my parents were told to stand on the wrong street and never got to see me run it. It was honestly my greatest accomplishment.
I’m an Army Brat. My MOM was an E8 (1st Sergeant y’all) in the Army and I have lived in Ft. Lewis (Tacoma)Washington; Kaiserslautern (K-Town), Germany; Ft. Hood, Texas; Darmstadt, Germany; and Ft. Huachuca (Sierra Vista), AZ until my mom retired. Going from Army bases to the “real world” was a huge culture shock for me.
I’m a night person but I’m currently working on becoming a morning person. It’s hard but it’s a work in progress. It’s REALLY hard to wake up at 6 am when there is snow all over the ground and you have to clean off your car! Thankfully Spring is almost here!
I quit my 365 photo project because I was taking pictures of stupid things just to make my midnight deadline. I haven’t put down my camera; I just want to be able to think about my shot before I take it. I hope that will be one small step in making me a better photographer.
I’m super scared of swimming in the ocean. I can’t go too far out into the water because I’m scared I will get sucked into the undertow. I almost drowned in the deep end of the pool when I was younger and I’m guessing I never fully gained back my confidence in my swimming abilities.
Now you know some strange things about me, give me 5-10 things I don’t know about you! You can leave it here in the comments or post a link to it on your own blog so I can check it out. Enjoy!